|Before/during weight loss progress|
As I sat down to write this post I was really depressed. There's so much on my mind and quite frankly I'm tired of putting up a good front and pretending that I'm alright. If you follow my Nik Gets Fit Facebook page then you already know bits and pieces but it's time I sit down and let it all out with this little "I'm Not Okay... but That's Okay" blog series.
I want to talk about my weight loss first. It has been such a slow process but I can't do anything but be happy when I look at old pictures. I'm doing it! It's not happening as quickly as I thought it would but the weight is coming off during the most stressful time in my life and that's absolutely amazing to me. The old Nikki would run to the fridge and raid the pantries to better cope with all that has gone on this past year. Don't get me wrong, at times I have done that but I picked myself up, dusted myself off and refocused.
When I started Nik Gets Fit (late 2011) I weighed around 250 pounds. I was just posting on my Facebook page about how I was looking at my drivers license laughing because I told them I weighed 250 when at the time I was between 265-270lbs and I now weigh much less. I need to get a new drivers license! Ha. Anyway, my current weight as of this morning is 203.8 pounds. I'm so close to being out of the 200's! Super excited about that.
I'm currently weighing a size 14 jeans, I believe the biggest size I bought was a size 22 but at some point I just started wearing big tshirts and sweatpants.
|Posted this pic on my Facebook page. The high waists and crop top created quite the illusion! Disclaimer: I did not go outside of my house like this. haha|
If you've been reading the blog then you know about my Obstacles & Ultimate Goal post. Although I am still not fully comfortable with showing my leg from the accident I have been taking major steps towards being comfortable in my own skin.
I wore a dress for the first time in November 2012. Almost exactly 1 year after I created this blog. I came across and clearance section and they had this cute dress for dirt cheap. I told myself I would just buy it and even if I didn't wear it I wouldn't feel guilty because it was so cheap. Well, I ended up wearing it! It actually didn't show much of my leg but it was still a huge step for me.
My daughter was really shocked to see her mama wearing a dress! Words can't even describe how that made me feel so I'll let the pictures do the talking.
I haven't worn a dress since that day but I wore a skirt with tights underneath a couple of times which is still a really huge deal for me.
I felt great but I haven't worn a skirt since then. When I saw a picture of the back of my leg it made me pretty self conscious because of the size difference.
I know I shouldn't let it bother me but it does. I'll continue working on it but I'm happy with the progress I've made. The old Nikki would completely skip over dresses and skirts being on the racks. Now I actually look at dresses in stores and online. It's a really great feeling. I don't think I would have ever pushed myself to do it had it not been for all of your support on this blog and my Facebook page.
I'm definitely going to start blogging more about my weight loss. I want to get more serious and make major changes so stay tuned for that!
So this was part 1 of this small blog series. My next posts will discuss my children, where they are with their autism and epilepsy, a little more about my life and current situations. Hope to see you there!